-.-

pengen nulis, tapi masih musim uas.

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sampai kapan ?

momen puasa yang ngga biasa
udah sebulan ngga kerasa
bentar lagi udahan puasa
setiap lebaran pasti berbeda
tapi kali ini ngga nyangka
lebaran dalam keadaan wabah di mana-mana
ekonomi morat marit sangat nestapa
saat diam di rumah adalah buah simalakama

tahun 2020
jangan lagi berubah menjadi tambah buruk
cukup sampai sini membuat jutaan jiwa terpuruk
perasaan resah gelisah berkecamuk
antara bekerja atau duduk dan ngantuk

sampai kapan?

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tidak untuk dibaca

bibir berdendang

lagu kesukaan

tentang patah hati

tentang kekasih yang telah pergi

samar-samar kenangan lama seperti visual televisi

terkadang geli sendiri

mengapa dulu terasa bahagia

sampai takut untuk lupa

hari ini, kehilangan itu nyata

luka ?

jelas iya

sakit ?

sungguh tak terkira

meski begitu

aku tak serapuh itu

aku bisa tertawa

karena aku menjadikan cerita sebagai bagian

bukan keseluruhan perasaan

kamu adalah bagian yang mau tak mau terus melekat

entah besok atau sepuluh tahun lagi

saat kita bertemu

saat tangan kita menggenggang cinta dan cita kita masing-masing

saat itu kita paham

cinta itu tidak padam

melainkan berganti

bertumbuh

dewasa

bahagia

dengan jalannya masing-masing

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Mom

Come out of nowhere, I remember what was happen when I was in elementary school. That day I was playing, then a group of people came bring a body of dead man. As a child with curiosity I walked and followed them. Short story, I peeped when the body was cleaned. It was not clear btw, my heart was pumping so fast. Suddenly, i felt something hit me on my back. I found one stone, threw at me. I was looking around sought the source. Nothing. I continued my observation. Then i was hit again. Second stone on my head. Shit, I was afraid. But my I didn't care. I still continued. Third stone, harder than before on my head! So I stopped, searching, and heard something. There was a giggle, from boys I was sure. I saw feet. Now I turned out to be pissed off. Some boys played me. Damn you idiot, i thought that day. Next act I did was threw back at one of them who I believed he was the one hit me. I took a stone and the stone hit him on his head. Bulls eye!!!! I smiled. Take that you lil bastard! It doesn't feel nice right?!

But suddenly, it was blood on his head. Fell down and he cried. I was shocked and went home. I said nothing to my mother. A few hours later, his parent came to my house, blaming me.  for everything and so mad. I locked myself in my room. I thought my mom will kill me.

Then I entered the room and asked me and she wanted me to tell everything.

I said, he threw the stone first, i was angry and I fought back!

My mom was silent.

Then she said, well done. You have to be strong, dont let anyone bully you, harm you, or anything they make you wanna feel bad about yourself. Fight back! But dont start war first, fight when you have to.

No drama, no angry, no cry.

Since then I know, my parent will support me no matter what as long as I am right. So, life is easier since then.

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Jeda

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It's 2020, Love

I never thought LOVE is so complicated

Love makes you strong and pain at the same time
Love gives happiness and tears at once
Love is freedom with a chain

No wonder, there poems, songs, paints, lyrics and books about LOVE
Stories that have no end
Experience which can't be the same

Now, I can relate..

Btw, Happy New Year Loves 💖

I see better me in 2020

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berdiri

berdiri tanpa berdarah dan menangis itu sulit

tapi lebih sulit jika sudah berdiri namun tidak punya tujuan

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Kelas Inspirasi

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sekilas

Hi guys, udah Oktober aja nih.
Belum sempat nulis lagi.

Semoga secepatnya ya bisa catch up sama kalian lagi.

See you soon 💋

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aku lemah

" memulai pertengkaran denganmu adalah sesuatu yang salah. aku kalah. aku terlalu rindu lalu mengalah. aku lemah. "

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